Anyone out there also learning to drive? God it’s hard. Hard for lots of reasons. Knowing that lots of 18 year olds can do it, that my brain clearly doesn’t work in the same way as my instructor but mainly hard because I want it so bad! Being able to drive is going to be life changing, particularly as my husband has no intention of learning. So it’s down to me!
My daughter plays a lot of sport so I need to be able to take her to matches and not keep relying on the parents in law. Someone once said to me that when your daughter calls you in the middle of the night to say she doesn’t know where she is, you need to be able to go and get her. Not call a taxi or ask for a lift. That stuck with me.
I really wish I had learnt when I was younger but I genuinely didn’t feel the need. I lived in big cities that had cheap, reliable public transport and I would never have been able to afford to learn or run a car. So the decision was made for me really.
Now though what I have is the fear. I think I’m a good driver but I worry about everything! To the extent it can stop me doing the most basic things. I second guess myself and need reassurance from my instructor, but if you asked me to talk you through a manoeuvre I could. I just need to get on with it, I know that. But I have the fear; the test, failing, driving on my own if I pass, having my daughter in the car for the first time, it goes on.
How do I get past that? Maybe today was just a bad day and next week will be better.
Mid Forties Mum 